Sidenotes.

As you can see - I've had quite a lot of problems with my eating lately... The nausea is worse than ever and there have been more than one occasion where I had to stop eating because my body said no. The 15th of June is one example, even though I didn't write it down on the list itself.

We had just sat down with our plates, I took three bites and then it hit. I couldn't eat more after that. At least not until later that evening.
My body is acting up and it shows here. It hurts, I feel nauseous and my mental health is very low.

I'm a bit frightened actually. On Monday I'll have my last meeting with my shrink before she leaves for her three weeks long vacation. I'm scared that I'll go back to my old ways when I don't have to show her the schedules each week. This will be my first time standing on my very own in this fight. A preview as to how it will be after August this year, when I'll stop meeting her altogether... I'm scared. But I won't give up!